2010 ~ Week 13, 14, 15

Forget about developing a new habit in 22 days! Mentirosos!! It's been more than 14 weeks and I am still struggling to make exercising part of my every day routine. Granted, I don't eat as much as I used to, but I wish I could say, "I work-out everyday too."

Recently, I was looking at a group photo that I was in and I nearly passed out in disbelief. Que pansona! Yes, I do own a full length mirror, but honestly I don't look so bad in it. It's only when I am walking next to a shop window that I notice how large I truly am. To make matters worse- earlier today while at the knitting shop, I couldn't help notice a woman sitting next to me looking at my torso. In my mind I kept telling her, "Don't ask me!! Please, please don't ask me!!!!!." I saw the picture and I know that I look at least six months pregnant. I'm.....F A T, G O R D A.

Yesterday, I saw one of my trainers that I had more than two years ago when I was fit and mostly trim. Tears welled up in my eyes because I wanted to beg him to re-shape me. It's been very hard doing it on my own. Sadly, I can no longer afford his services so I'm forced to continue to reshape myself on my own.

Oddly enough, my measurements have not fluctuated much:

Waist: 38"

Weight: 188 lbs

 If this is not motivation, I don't know what is.